Of Men

Even if you manufacture quaint rationalizations about it, relationships are complex and anxiety ridden enough without the pressures of having to define what stages are you in. There is denial, anger, fear, bargaining and acceptance-- almost synonymous to stages of death!
For the female species, no organism is as baffling as incomprehensible as that which is referred to as "men". He can turn your life into howling wilderness of misery by employing such devious means as ignoring you, not able to take a hint and doing practically anything as if you don't exist. For some reasons, they can almost do anything for you as much as they could claim, IF they want to get something, and the next time you knew it, they would manipulate your focus and attention for some incomprehensible purpose-- they are men and they are to take the lead. They almost have all the reasons in this world if they don't want things get happen yet, they also have all the ways to do what they want to take place.
I know from vast experience of observations that men can behave as irrationally and even mushily than women. They drink as an excuse to get emotional. Afterwards, they would deny everything they said or done as if they were on their losing intervals when they were drunk. (Hey, losing interval is a legal jargon for schizophrenics).
Men want something from their underwear that they want from women: a little bit of support and a little bit of freedom.
Of course, NOT all men are subject for these observations, I just haven't met any. I, myself have recognized the futility of even attempting to understand how the male mind works. But I worship the man I love. Call it madness, I do.
Comparisons are odious but I would admit that I have an object of my most profound hormonal affections.The saddest part is, as much as I want to be with him, I cannot this time because I am still finishing something in my home country. I have my plans though but hopefully, he is still "available" that time. We halfly knew each other but the only thing that we are sure of, we like each other so much and up until now, my feelings for him hasn't changed. The connection is still there, the cord that would never be denied.
Life is chaotic and frequently bizarre. It has its own logic which we do not see . There are no cause and effect, things just happen with no apparent reason. Relationship is a two-way thing, no matter on what instance you meet someone, whether at a wrong time or right reason, it is a commitment and supposedly without bargaining, it is an understanding of two people without any expectations of only one would benefit. We try to impose a notion of order by assigning events as beginning, middle and end. These are often arbitrary. You don't know that something has begun not unless you are in the middle of it, you might think you have seen the ending but the story goes on.